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Phenomenon: Katya Hate-On

This is an odd posting, but in light of The Hunter premise, recent activity on my fan page, and my feelings as I write Integrated, I felt the need to get something off of my chest. I’m sure I will piss some readers off, and perhaps spoil some shit. You can dissect my words for clues on Integrated and so forth. But this is simply in defense of Katya Waters.

As I’ve interacted with readers and read reviews… People HATE Katya’s f’ing guts. It’s an everyday occurrence that I get an ‘I hate Katya’ from someone on my various pages. I’ve had actual death-threat emails over this, I shit you not. Katya is a fictitious character… ya know. I mean, kill her? Yes, death-threats. *smh*

It’s an interesting dynamic for me. I’m not trying to sway your feelings over the character. I actually want to know your view, because it helps me with character development in the future. I’m curious to see where I went wrong, or if it is simply a case of we see ‘this character‘ with ‘this character‘ and will accept nothing less.

It’s a phenomenon in psychology, how we gloss over the huge shit going on but pick on a character that has blended into the background as we hear about her through a tainted lens.

At first, I was waiting for someone, anyone, to stand up for Katya… when readers kept hating on her, I kept making it more obvious… and still… nothing. No one said, “Help Katya. This isn’t right. Why are you doing this?” Since I am a maniacal bitch, I started bashing Katya through the narration of other characters just to see if anyone would say anything.

You are aware that Katya is Ezra’s WIFE, right? No? Because we don’t seem to care that Ezra has NEVER acted like a husband…

My stories have STRONG females. Females who believe in empowerment and are borderline cock haters. A few are huge feminists. The readers love Faith and Regina. LOVE. & this pleases me to no end. I’m proud to make inspiring characters…

BUT, and yes, this is a huge but, it’s okay for said strong females spouting empowerment to bully Katya- both of the favorites do. They bully Katya for actions out of her control. & I had Faith say some nasty shit about a Tonka truck… and ya know what? That wasn’t even about Katya, that was about EZRA & CORTEZ… yes, that’s right. It was the disrespect they showed Katya. But, nope, the readers blamed Kat. And while written with a humorous twist, it was rather gross of Faith to think those thoughts about Katya and not blame the men. Again, no one noticed, or Faith was applauded for being nasty.

For me, it just shows how women think and behave. No matter what, we pit ourselves against one another. We won’t stick up for each other. But we will fight over a cock, even a worthless and faithless cock. Time and time again, I made it to where Regina and Faith could have stepped in and rescued Kat, but I didn’t have them do it to show how women do not stick up for each other…

I wrote the story this way for a reason. It was on design for what is to come. I’m known for cerebral fuckage. But I was astonished by the hate-on the readers had for Katya, how they felt no compassion towards her but felt it for her abusers and bullies.

It’s interesting. Lends to the blame the victim mentality. By no means should behaviors be forgiven because you were once a victim. But what about those victimizers that are so nonredeemable but we seem to love them anyway…

I just really feel the need to defend my creation. I just don’t see where this anger is coming from- this hypocrisy… and as I continue to write a story that Katya hovers around, I’m left feeling frustrated. Yes, I wrote it this way. It’s the readers’ perceptions that are baffling me…

I mean, it’s not like Kat is a whore, a murderer, a serial rapist, a criminal, a drug lord… that’s all good, right? I mean. we can just forgive that shit, right?

Kat’s only crime is that she wants to be the best at her profession instead of staying at home with the kids.. It’s the only thing Kat has any control over, and even then, it’s only perceived control. I’ve heard the mother complaints from a lot from readers. I’m a huge advocate for stay-at-home moms, I was raised by one. We are all different. Some ppl are not meant to be mommies. Neither is better than the other, it’s just lifestyle choices…  choices written in a series about alternative lifestyles, I might add. Ironically, what’s perfectly fine for the beloved women in my series isn’t for Katya. Think on that for a moment… …. …. okay, Regina and Faith have careers. I actually did that to see if anyone would bitch, but they never did. Just about Katya.

Kat has sex. OMG! Yes, why, yes, she does… It’s dark erotica… aren’t they all fucking someone? But Katya isn’t banging husbands behind their wives’ backs… that’s okay for the beloved characters to betray Katya with Ezra, though, right? & the readers don’t even blame Ezra or Regina. That’s perfectly acceptable behavior… if your name isn’t Katya.

But Kat is dog shit because she doesn’t want to be humiliated and disrespected by the very women that spout empowerment and feminism? Everyone is huge Regina and Faith fans. While I love and respect my creations, I love them equally, and I made them equally as flawed as they are good.

This is something I’ve been examining for well over a year, and when I went back to fix Restraint & Unleashed… I was like, “wow. I never noticed that before.” I just want to give Katya a fucking hug.

& yes, this is raw in my mind because I wrote a 6,000 word chapter today on this very subject within Integrated. & I could list the merits of Katya Waters vs her bullies or copy/paste segments of what I’d written. But I won’t because I don’t want to taint your view of the books. I go into great depth with this, and I could now. But if you don’t realize Katya’s motivations right now, I’d rather you just read about it in Integrated.

I hope when you read Integrated that you regain your compassion and actually see things clearly. if not, I tried my damnedest through 6,000 words of my character bleeding out…

Katya is my stalking horse… You guys might not love Kat, but she is my creation… my very first creation… and more than 75% of her personality traits, physical characteristics, and even the town she lived in and the life she had led… was all me. I’ve used her to express how I’ve felt: violated, trapped, confused, lost, alone, trapped, scared, and tortured. Kat has been living how I lived, in a much more fanatical way, obviously. Right now, she is lost and trapped, and stepped on…I’ve been there- we all have. That is what is baffling me- the lack of empathy and compassion as we praise the victimizer and blame the victim… just step back and truly think on this. Your feelings of all the characters and why.

I use Katya as an example of life. We all overlook what the cocks do… and we will take sides with the vaginas, even if it’s the wrong side. But there is always one person that we hate for no fucking reason at all. Think about it… it’s true in all walks of life, every part of the world, and in every age group… and for some fucked up reason, just among the vaginas.

Interesting… as I said, never forget, I write by perception. One person’s lens may be tainted because they aren’t in the other character’s head. And everything I write is for a reason- and most likely, a psychological reason.

Please, feel free to tell me your thoughts. It’s why I wrote this. Join us in the M&M of Restraint Closed group on Facebook or email me:

11 responses

  1. Stacey

    Personally I liked Katya in the beginning, it’s only after the last couple books that I’ve grown to dislike her. I’m only a few chapters deep into The Hunter, so my opinion may change, since nothing is safe in these books. I feel bad for Kat in the way that in the first book she seemed loved by her husbands, but now she comes across as more of a irritating “extra” in their bed. I don’t know why I don’t like her, you’re right she’s not doing anything the other characters aren’t doing, and I LOVE all the other characters. I find myself wanting to slap her, and just scream “stop fucking everyone, and fix your home”…I suppose that could be said of Cort & Ezra, but I can’t help but feel like she’s a “guest” in their love and should work a little harder on helping them come back together. I don’t know why I put that on her. I guess it’s just been forced down my throat for as long as I can remember that the wife/mother is the “glue” of the family. I also don’t feel she really loves anyone truly, all the other characters seem to have their “one” but hers doesn’t seem to stand out to me anymore the way everyone else’s does. I almost feel I’d like her more if she wasn’t with Cort & EZ, and found love with another character.

    August 18, 2013 at 8:48 am

    • WickedWriter

      Thank you for replying. You are the first one who actually admitted that the wife/mother issue was so ingrained in our beings that we can’t see around it. It’s been a circular argument for the past few days.
      As women, we want to be equal, yet we hold ourselves back or try to lower other women.
      I know it’s a weird topic of conversation… but as I was writing Integrated, I just thought, “Why Kat?” “Why is she the only one singled out by everyone to be disliked?” I also thought she is the one with the least amount of sins tainting her soul, yet we blame her more firmly than anyone.
      I’ve waited for someone to blame Cort/Ez for making Kat feel ‘left out’ and as the extra. Another thing we have instilled is that we should fight, or make, someone love us. You either are loved or you aren’t… you shouldn’t have to change or lose yourself to meet their needs.
      I just found it interesting that Kat was on everyone’s hit list.

      August 18, 2013 at 9:09 am

  2. OMG it is only a character in a book people get a damn grip. They all are get over yourselves. Erica you keep going of course there are cuckcoos out here. Don’t let it get to you. I love the series and I like all the characters so far so don’t let it bother you. No one ever gets a good review out of every book or character. You keep doing what it is that you do and that’s being an authoress. Don’t let the haters play you. Tell em it’s only entertainment. SMDH @ the stupidity of some folks. Not you Erica.

    August 18, 2013 at 1:43 pm

  3. tia thomas- blakey

    My thing with Katya is that i really don’t know her enough, i mean yeah we know she was raped and had a baby, then married Ez, but as i continued throughout the series i always wanted to know her backstory. As i read throughout the series, she’s been really annoying to me for some reason. With Faith and Regina i can relate to them, but with Kat I just feel something is missing with her. All she does is be at home with the kids, why can’t she be stronger. A part of me thinks at times she plays the victim card a little too much, but speaking from experience as a victim of rape, she should have continued with a professional after she found out that Ez and Queen played her. No one could get over that. I think she’s cold, and doesn’t have that love that Whitt has for Dalton, or Marcus has for Regina. I see where you are coming from, but i just think that she’s with Ez because of his last name. If she loves them fight, if not she should let EZ go and let him and Cort try to be together.

    August 18, 2013 at 2:53 pm

  4. laurensmom22

    I totally don’t get the hate. In fact, I’m just the opposite. I remember when Katya said something to the effect, “I have two husbands, but I’m the only one not having sex.” And I thought how unfair it was that you were depriving her because she does have two husbands. Why can’t the poor woman ever have sex? I loved your first book and continue to wait for a HEA for Katya, or at least a happy for now or the three of us are working on happy, but honestly, my heart just breaks for Katya.

    And if Katya is based on you, my heart breaks for you too.

    August 18, 2013 at 3:53 pm

  5. Karen

    Im surprised to hear you say that so many people dislike this character. She was the main character in the first two books and I don’t think I would have become so engrossed with the series if Id disliked her. Mostly I feel sorry for her, particularly through your most recent books. She’s had a traumatic past and is now quite obviously the outsider in her relationship with Ez/Cort. Plus she’s in the dark about everything going on around her. Of all your characters she is the one I most want a HEA for.

    Ps- I love this series. Im currently 70% through the Hunter and anticipate serious withdrawal when Im finished. I couldnt read another book for 2 weeks after Faithless. Don’t let the negativity effect your writing. Im sure there are many more people out there who love your books and their main characters.

    August 18, 2013 at 8:30 pm

  6. Mary Jo

    I don’t hate Katya. In my opinion, she’s been on the sidelines since the first few books. Yes, we get glimpses of her as a character in the other stories but I haven’t “felt” her. I think Cort’s book gives us a good insight to her feelings. What I failed to realize during the previous books, is that she is searching for the same thing Cort is, and I hope that she gets her chance at a real and lasting HEA.

    August 18, 2013 at 11:29 pm

  7. Kelly

    I think that like most people, we really liked her in the first few books. Then we started to see her thru other peoples perceptions. Like you said most of the women (Regina and especially Faith) didn’t seem to like her. So you see her thru their eyes. That some how jades you. With Cort jealousy and some of her perceived activities, she kind of looks not in the best light.

    August 19, 2013 at 10:17 pm

  8. Heidi

    Was thinking how katya were ;). Truth, I prefere the parts about her in the other books. I have on issue about her wanting a life. That is normal behaviour for women in Denmark. We dont have a lot of stay at home wifes.
    I’m team Katya and damn I hope she will get her Hea at the end.
    Sorry my bad spelling. Love from Denmark

    April 1, 2014 at 4:02 pm

  9. Mandy

    I have loved Katya from day one. She is the reason I have continued to read the series and she’s also to reason I have not read Integrated. I foresee more heartache and pain for her… I am not normally the type to post on sites and such but I was searching online trying to find a glimmer of hope somewhere on the internet for her some review that hints that everything will work out since reading the hunter I don’t see it. I want to know how the story concludes but because she is my favorite character and while she is only a character in a book I want that character to have that happily ever after. I feel she deserves it more than most of the others in this story.

    May 26, 2014 at 8:15 pm

    • WickedWriter

      Without leaking any storyline threads, this statement applies to every single character I create: they will reach their destined HEA (within themselves & those around them) As in life, my characters meet, fall in love, feel hurt and feel joy. They makes mistakes. They hurt others unwittingly, and do acts of kindness. I try to show my characters from every angle, leaving them beautifully, realistically flawed.

      I understand why you are worried, but just know, everything I do to my characters is for their own good in the end. For some, the journey just takes longer. The longer it takes, the more deserving and appreciative the character & readers will be.
      Again, without trying to let too much out. Somethings are bitter sweet, but nonetheless sweet.

      I’m debating on writing Katya another novel titled Empowered. I’m unsure if it’s necessary at this point, but I will know for sure when I am finished with the next M&M of Restraint title: Hero.

      Thank you for reading. I will offer this bit of advice. In Integrated, everything is how is should be, how it needs to be, for all those involved. There is no cliffhanger. There is a sense of finality. And as for Katya, her path is set, and the path is very clearly marked out for the readers. By the end, usually the readers who wanted my head mounted above their mantel, understood and actually agreed with me.

      May 26, 2014 at 8:34 pm

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